Crush is sth like drug. U take it, enjoy it, rely on it...whatever how strong ur mind is. I used to searching for someone to renew my faith in the glory of the human mind. Acctually, it's doomed to a failure. A friend said that I was almost too perceptive to life sometimes. Anywayz, that depends. I just want to follow a better life style, healthier, brighter...even though it would kill my inspiration. Before that, keep an eye open wide to discover the value of life, and then, get rid of the crush on the bad habbits, just like to quit drug addiction. There's always a new one around the corner.